my thoughts..

haven been blogging for 2 days . . had been overnight at bb's hse . . but kinda got very hurt and stressed up with bb's mum today.

guess she somehow found out on why i m so free nowadays and start prompting me doubts like "where r u actuali working now and stuff" . . cus i didnt told her that i was retrenched and i actuali took up the courage of hinting her that i m abt to be retrenched and guess what she said? . . she said hey . . why dont you work properly . . since u had got a good job why u dun wanna wrk and keep on changing jobs... in my mind, i thought..hey..i was retrenched ..nt resign myself..but guess she doesnt understands.. . bb started to ask me why i was so down in mood . . he should had cared for me but instead he told me that why i suddenly mood swing like mad and nag at why m i angry over such small thing and dozed off . . doesnt he knows that my heart is hurt and crying . . will he hug me tight n tell me he is there for me.. . in fact ..no.

i dunnoe how much hav i had to try very best to love his mum cus i m realli very tired in doing so...my heart is realli painful and no one knows...no one understands,...even him. should i let tis relation go? . . i m tired.